Right now, I am at the Internet Research Center (IRC) of our school and I just wanna write anything I can come up to.
What I can remember as of now are the “sabaw” moments because I still feel so “sabaw” and “lutang” until now. Well, you might ask what is it about. Filipinos usually use it as an expression nowadays. It’s like when we tend to be physically present but mentally absent or so. Yep! It’s like floating around, daydreaming. Being there, but not completely. Also, lacking the ability to respond quickly to the happenings around you. “Loading”, as said by many.
What made me feel so “sabaw” today?
I had a 7:30am class this morning and here I am, waiting for our next class at 1:30. I wanna read lotsa stuffs and so I ended up here blogging about random things and stumbling and tweeting and stalking and reading news from all over the world. Just random stuffs, really.
I came home last night at 10pm. I can’t even believe I arrived home safe & sound because I was sleeping on my way home. Haha! I still didn’t get enough sleep so I’m like having a hangover of sleepiness from yesterday’s activities.
So are you now getting the point of being SABAW? =))
I don’t exactly know what I am blogging about. As I said, I just feel like writing so I write. I wanna share how my sabaw-ness can lead to (awesome?) weird experiences. Talk about experiences! Me, my sister, mom and niece went to Manila Ocean Park just a month ago. Of course it was a very tiring day. We got to go here and there etc. Like what anybody would feel, we were so hungry so we ate at a certain restaurant there. So what? Here’s my short sabaw story… (introduction palang pala yun noh? haha.)
We sat there waiting for our orders. We talked about random things. I talked to them although I felt so sleepy & hungry at the same time. I was still OK, but then… my mom brought up a conversation and then there was me… unconsciously staring blankly on the wall. Floating… Loading… It felt like I was in a fairytale (I can’t remember what I was thinking but I guess that was about a guy who… hehe.) And then suddenly, the silence faded and I heard a voice. My mom was like, “Huy!” then I said “Ha?” My sister was like wtf… “Hala? bingi.” Hahaha! That moment is just… ugh. All I know is that I was floating, to the point that I can’t hear and see anything around me. But I was alive, awake, (enthusiastic?) and my eyes were open.
I thought it only happens in the movies but then it happened to me for the first time and it kinda sound so funny but it’s really awesome! It’s like I produced a natural editing in a movie happening in my reality. =( :)
It doesn’t matter, as long as I know I’m still in the present even though sometimes I wish I don’t. :PI know I am not the only one. You too can experience this! You might even have experienced this kind of thing already. It’s awesome. Haha!
I’m a proud sabaw-er, lutang-er, float-er. I don’t know why. Maybe because my friends are even worse. Haha! And they can bear with me.
But I tell you, too much sabaw-ness and lutang-ness is… annoying, for other people. So beware! It’s fun to be lutang sometimes but don’t overdo it ’cause if you do, you have to deal with the consequences and so you have to master the art of floating.
Good luck! :D